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I Know what I am after, but....

Working with a limited amount of fabric in limited colours ain't easy! I have finally gotten the partial hollyhock bloom to the right of the main one - SORT OF! I have had the whole thing off the backing and back on, and then off again and a whole new one on now! It is still not exactly what I want but I believe it is closer and I feel more comfortable with it. I know I can play with my Prismacolor pencils and make some subtle adjustments. I shall- but not today, Dear! It will have to stay as is for the moment! Here it is to date!
Well , here we are so far. this is a very grey , gloomy day so I really should have used a flash but I didn't.
I am kind of thinking watercolour right now. I think the background may be forming in my little pea sized brain. We shall see. This little post is just to show that I am never idle ;-) Now, I am going to dine with DH ( whose back is KILLING him today) and my Mum!

Juicy Greens???

I said I wanted to get greens into this to make the pinks more sparkly. Juicy greens! Then, I remembered - hollyhock greens are DUSTY Greens! They are pubescent so it makes the underneath green ( which IS juicy) look dusty and dry. Anyway, the green surely DOES help - at least to my eye.
I should reedit this pic as the whole thing is too garish. The colours here are far more gaudy than they are in real life. I shall post this but come back and redo the photo.
Now, I have the lower stem with spent flowers still clinging and a sort of shy bloom to the right of this one. She did not quite want to show her face :-)

Off I go to start supper and to reedit this photo. Stay tuned!
There we go! MUCH closer to reality! 

Making progress slowly

I have to dye some more fabric for the bloom that is behind this big one. The colours are cooler, greyer, less in the foreground. No time today as we are invited out and I feel a little iffy anyway so not a good day for concentrating on BIG WORK. Ok, here is where I was last evening...
Part way round the five petals. So far, so good.
This morning , I began to work on the rest of the big main bloom and have MOST of it on the go now.


Here are the main petals pretty much done except for the jittery fritters little snips for details.
And here I have added a bud and some further shading.

Now I am DYING to get some green onto this piece! That may sound silly but ever since I was a little kid, I have needed some green to prevent things looking dry. Green makes it "juicy" and I like that. The greens will be cottons , hand dyed , rather than silks. The silks have been fun to work with. I really like the feel of them. The Habotai ( in this case, VERY light weight) shimmers so nicely, The gauze and chiffon are both very flat looking but gently translucent but the queen on the transparent fabrics is the silk organza! It REALLY adds depth as you really CAN see into the layers of fabric. I LOVE the effect- not for every piece but definitely stellar for this job! I have to decide now if I will use cottons or silks for the background hollyhock.

As it is Tuesday, I plan to post this to the needleandthreadnetwork.blogspot.com . There are lots on interesting project there. Enjoy!


Jolly Hollyhocks

I am finally starting a new project! My lamp died- and DH repaired it. I loaned a bolt of PFD to friends - and the new order FINALLY arrived so I can start dyeing again. I drew some holly patterns, had them enlarged at the Printshop. They came out TERRIBLY so- I returned the next day and they redid them for me ! Things are looking up so I have STARTED! YAY,ME!!!!

I adore hollyhocks as you may have seen in earlier posts. I have a LOT of photos and have made some patterns. I dyed a bunch of different silks- Habotai, chiffon,organza and gauze in various pinks, lavenders and some reds because hollyhocks SHOULD be made of silks!

pretty colours, eh?
 Yesterday, I started on the actual piece with a base of cotton, and a hollyhock base of the palest pink Habotai I could manage. This is where I am at the moment- perhaps not too exciting for viewers yet but my hopes are very high for some lovely transparency .

Cotton and silk over paper pattern. Pretty blah at the moment but that pale pink is JUST what I want for the transparent bits where the morning light is shining through the blooms!

This bloom was almost finished when I photographed it so it was virtually transparent. I HOPE I can capture that effect. Here is the photo I am working from-

Big bloom- not really. Just close up :-)
I THINK it is this one. There are two or three very similar . Anyway, this one gets you the idea.

I am going to post quickly to the needleandthreadnetwork.blogspot.com and dash as I have to go out. I may add more later.

A message of hope!

THIS IS A VERY LONG POST BUT I ASKED MY DAUGHTER IF I COULD SHARE IT WITH YOU AND SHE SAID,"BY ALL MEANS. THAT IS WHY I WROTE IT!" I WAS SO MOVED BY IT THAT I JUST HAD TO SHARE AND I HOPE YOU WILL PASS IT ALONG TO ANY WOMEN WHO WOULD BE ENCOURAGED BY IT. WE ARE A FAMILY THAT IS WELL AND TRULY BLESSED AND I THANK GOD DAILY FOR THOSE BLESSINGS. DD'S BLOG IS-

 paleogirl7.blogspot.com

I AM GOING TO POST THIS TO THE needleandthreadnetwork.blogspot.com. I HAVE FINISHED THE POPPIES AGLOW II AND WILL POST IT AS MY PHOTO . I AM PLEASED WITH IT BUT THERE IS NOT MUCH TO SAY THAT HAS NOT ALREADY BEEN SAID, SO ENJOY THIS INSTEAD. BTW , DD IS AN ARCHAEOLOGIST, NOT A FOLLOWER OF THE PALEO DIET:-)
All done , quilted, faced and sleeved - still needs a label!


Oh, goodness, it's been a long time since I posted. I swear it's for a very good reason, though. I have a story to tell, and I'm going to tell it because it was thanks to hearing stories like this that I was able to get through my own experience. This is not a unique story -- plenty of people out there have been through their own version of it -- but it is a story that is often swept under the rug. Because of the almost taboo nature of the subject, I think a lot of people suffer rather unnecessarily. My hope, in telling my tale, is that anyone else out there who is struggling with this same problem will realize that they are not alone, and that a glimmer of hope is not always beyond reach. The story goes a little something like this:

Several years ago, I approached my sister-in-law, then a resident in Obstetrics and Gynecology, about the terrible time I had been having with my periods. This is something that I have suffered with my entire post-pubescent life. I have had dreadful irregularity, which has included having a period for weeks at a time, having a week off, then starting up again, as well as being in so much pain that I couldn't get out of bed. (I should mention that I am not generally much of a wuss about discomfort. I was back doing archaeological fieldwork less than a month after major abdominal surgery, just as an example.) I had been to doctors about this problem before, and most had patted me on the head and told me to take a Midol. My fabulous sister-in-law, however, said "That just isn't right," and arranged for me to see one of the doctors she studied under at the local University hospital. This doctor asked me loads of questions, ran some tests, and listened to my concerns over the fact that nothing had happened after 2 years of trying to conceive. She concluded that endometriosis was the likely culprit, and that a simple surgery would probably correct a lot of these problems, so I went ahead and scheduled the procedure.

Surgery day came, and I was wheeled off to the operating room in the hopes of waking up to a whole new comfortable world, and to the possibility of being able to get pregnant. When I woke up, however, I was given some slightly disheartening news. Years ago, I had lost an ovary and fallopian tube as the result of a cyst that caused ovarian torsion. Because of the fact that I was starting at a slight disadvantage when it comes to conceiving, the surgeons decided to check out my remaining parts in order to ensure that everything was in good working order. What they discovered was that my remaining fallopian tube was blocked. It appeared to be a blockage at the end where it enters the uterus, and so I was given a very positive prognosis. A simple procedure should have been able to open up the tube for me.

I was sent off to a reproductive endocrinology (RE) specialist who told me that, if the blockage was where the other doctors had thought it was, it would be an easy (although not permanent) fix. She said that, once the tube was opened up, I would have a good 6 months or so to try to get pregnant before it likely would close up again. In an effort to make sure that everything else was functioning before we tried opening the tube, my RE doctor put me through a battery of tests to make sure my hormones were working properly and that I had a good egg supply left to work with. Long story short: they were not, and I did not. Based on the results of my test, I was looking at an early onset of menopause. My egg quality had diminished substantially, and I did not seem to be producing eggs reliably. Any hope of becoming pregnant was beginning to fade, but was not entirely lost.

The option to open the tube was still a viable one -- there was, after all, a chance that a good egg would make it through -- so I scheduled the HSG procedure (hysterosalpingogram). This procedure involves injecting a dye (contrast material) into the uterus and then observing the path of the dye with a steady X-ray beam. (Incidentally, this procedure is NOT comfortable, no matter how much Advil they tell you to take! But it's not a long-lasting pain.) I watched the procedure on the X-ray monitor. My doctor showed me where the various structures were, and explained to me what she was seeing. In my case, there was only the very faintest trace of dye in the fallopian tube. It looked like fine, hair-like smudges in a couple of spots along the tube. This indicated that the blockage was not just at the proximal end. Instead, the tube was almost completely blocked along its entire length, making it un-fixable. My heart dropped at this news.

My doctor presented me with one last option: I could try injectable fertility drugs (hCG), which force the ovary to produce many eggs per cycle, in the hopes that one might find its way through the tube. After my first cycle, my RE performed an ultrasound and discovered that I had produced a small handful of eggs -- about four, if I remember correctly. This was not terribly encouraging. When women are injected during IVF cycles, doctors like to see more on the order of ten eggs. We had no luck with that first cycle of injections, so we tried again the next month, with a much higher dosage of the hormone. At the end of this second cycle, despite my dosage having been increased to the maximum, I produced even fewer eggs. This was not good news. My ovary appeared to be shutting down. My doctor sat down with us to discuss our options. Because of my lack of response to the fertility drugs, I was not a good candidate for IVF, nor was there much point in continuing the injections in the hopes of conceiving the "good ol' fashioned way." I was given a less-than-2% chance of ever being able to conceive naturally and the doctor said that, if I ever did manage it, the blockage in the fallopian tube would almost certainly cause an ectopic pregnancy that would have to be terminated. Our remaining options: embryo adoption, egg donation, or traditional adoption. Being a starving student, all of these options were, at least for the moment, out of our reach.

My husband and I grieved for a time, and then decided that we had done all we could do. We began to study adoption procedures, and we looked into taking classes so that, if we were eventually in a financial position to do so, we could pursue adoption. This was at the end of 2012.

In mid-February, 2013, friends of ours asked us out to dinner to announce their pregnancy. I was very happy for them, but our sad news from a few months before was still a bit raw, so the evening was rather bittersweet. I mentioned to the mommy-to-be that I was excited to eat some real food again, as I had been feeling really nauseated for about a week-and-a-half. I had no appetite, and nothing was sitting right. Perhaps I was just overly aware after news of our friends' pregnancy, but I started to think: I had been nauseated for most of two weeks, and I had been feeling very tired. I decided, on a whim, to take a pregnancy test....

...and there was a line! I was in complete shock, so I called my sister-in-law (the OBGYN). She told me to call my RE right away. If I was, in fact, pregnant, I would have to be checked out immediately, in case the pregnancy was ectopic. After what seemed like an interminable wait, my doctor called me with the results: I was pregnant! Based on the date of my last period, I was just barely pregnant -- around 4 weeks or so. My hCG levels were very high, though, for being so early in the pregnancy, so either my calculations were off, or I was pregnant with twins. (Spoiler alert: it was not twins. Phew!)

I went in for an ultrasound, to see if the embryo was in the right place, and it was. This little "bean" had made it through the tube, and had attached itself perfectly. I was measuring at 6 weeks, which was odd, considering that the date of my last period meant that I should be 4 weeks along. Regardless, I was PREGNANT!!! My elation was short-lived, though, as the doctor became concerned that she saw no movement or heartbeat. It turned out that my last "period" was actually the scary kind of bleeding that indicates a problem with the pregnancy. I was actually 8 weeks along, and had lost the pregnancy at 6 weeks. People who hear this story are always very sympathetic and sad over the loss of this pregnancy. I remind them, though, that, while it was a little heartbreaking in the moment, it was actually really good news. Contrary to all the medical opinions I had received, it was possible for me to get pregnant. And now that we knew that, my RE could help us with our baby-making schedule, and could provide the appropriate hormonal support.

So, after having to take Misoprostol to deal with the missed miscarriage, we started trying to conceive, with the help of my fabulous doctor. I'll skip past all the remaining gory details and just tell you that, on June 19, 2013, this happened:


and then, over time, this happened:




with a little of this along the way:





 and then, finally, THIS happened:


We welcomed our beautiful, healthy little boy on February 27 of this year. He is now a beautiful, healthy, active, sweet, and hilarious little boy of 5 months. I was sick as a dog the whole pregnancy, gave them a couple of scares at the end, and had a long and somewhat difficult delivery...and I would do it all over again to get to meet this little fellow! I am still completely stunned by how things worked out. I thank my lucky stars every day, and I thank that first little "bean" who didn't make it. Whoever he or she was did a wonderful thing, I think, and got my "oven" all ready to bake an amazing little boy.

I am so grateful for the help and support of my doctors, family, and friends throughout this whole ordeal. It has been a definite test of my mettle, and of mine and my husband's strength as a couple. I couldn't have survived the last several years without my husband's constant love and support. Even when things were at their darkest, he was able to lift me up, and to remind me that not all was lost and that things have a way of working out.

So, to any of you out there who are struggling with similar issues, I encourage you not to give up. I know this same story won't happen for everyone, but if you can manage to cling to a little glimmer of hope, you never know what might happen. I think, for me, relaxing after accepting that pregnancy was not in the cards, as well as the effects of what we thought was an unsuccessful medical procedure, were the keys to our success. To all you ladies who are struggling, I wish you all the best of luck and encourage you to remember that you're not alone. We're all cheering for you (including Baby O)!



Quilting begun

Well, after a whirlwind visit with our DD and family, the quilting has begun again. It is a good way to drown one's sorrows at losing this...OOPS!! Thanks for the hot tip, Dolores:-) - Fear not folks! This little boy is well and full of beans as usual- just a L O N G , L  O  N   GGG way from us! His Mummy and Daddy- likewise :-( Thank Goodness for Face Time!
After that photo, the quilt looks pretty shabby! I have started the quilting on Poppies Aglow II. DH was worried about the wrinkled background:-) I am NOT! That is what the quilting does... levels everything out nicely! So here is where I am at the moment. I will be tied up for a couple of days so progress may be slow.

The bottom picture is the truest colour. The top one is heavy on the blues  which is inaccurate but you get the idea of the quilting.

OK, VERY short of time today but I wanted to post to the needleandthreadnetwork.blogspot.com. They had some sort of glitch last week but I see they are back firing on all cylinders this week. Enjoy the other posts and enjoy the long weekend!

A serendipitous little landscape

I start teaching a new landscape class at the end of the month so I am trying something a little different this time. There is no particular sample done for people to use as inspiration. Normally, I teach the techniques using a set pattern I have drawn and had enlarged. Because I usually have at least ONE very timid student, there WILL be a little basic pattern, should I not be able to encourage someone to at least TRY to make her own pattern. BUT, I am also going to talk in general terms about what makes a good landscape picture- centre of interest, point of view, Rule of Thirds etc. With this info, I HOPE I can encourage some people to just start from scratch. Also, I want to present the idea of serendipity in making landscape quilts. You may remember my recent "If Monet Grew Hydrangeas"? It began as a piece of my own hand dyed fabric that screamed "Look at the hydrangeas in here!!" the end result- the aforementioned Hydrangea quilt( to date, unquilted as I am not sure it is finished just yet!)

Well, I was looking at my commercial fabric stash and found an ombré stripe which shouted  "Landscape" at me ( my world is VERY noisy!) I saw sky and foreground in the lovely, subtle stripes. It made me think of a misty morning- or evening- on a still, cloudy seashore with waves just lapping onto a deserted beach  and dry sandy dunes in the foreground with a derelict slat fence, tufts of sere and wispy grasses and a scatter of rounded, bleached beach pebbles.  Here is what I have so far...
Not spectacular but promising, I think.
Now, the trick here is that you need a base fabric that has a story to tell. This is where the serendipity comes in. It depends on the quilt shop and on the eye of the beholder. I WANT to give the students a little time to shop the shelves and see if there IS any "talking fabric" . Otherwise, we shall proceed to step two and work on some gentle arm twisting to get them to try to design something themselves. I am torn because there are two techniques I want to teach them- turned edge and fused appliqué. Maybe I will start by demo-ing those, THEN let them loose to shop the shelves. I think that has just made up my mind- teach technique first, serendipity next! We are nothing , if not adaptable:-)

As it is Wednesday evening already, I will send this off to the needleandthreadnetwork.blogspot.com and hope you will check out other postings there.

Nostalgia, Sentiment and Peaceful Coexistence

Many years ago, when I was a boy ( tee hee) I lived a pretty monastic life on a busy street in Hamilton, Ontario. There were very few children to play with and besides, I was a solitary sort of child anyway- always living in my own head and content with my own company. (What's new, I hear some of you ask???) I was always away somewhere else in my head, creating, imagining, dreaming! This week, two hollyhocks that persisted after the great garden culling of 2013 came into bloom in one of our front flower beds! They are not very tall and not very profuse bloomers, but they ARE in bloom! I had to dig out the old ones last year as they had succumbed to rust and weevils.

Those two little stalks of bloom INSTANTLY transported me back to my Granny's garden on that busy street in Hamilton. Very little in the way of flowers grew in that garden but hollyhocks DID bloom there. To amuse myself , I used to pick a few blooms - and Granny grew LOTS of colours- and matching buds. Then with a toothpick, or sometimes a straight pin, I would transform the hollyhock flowers into beautiful dancing ladies or fairies in colourful, fluttery gowns. I know now that I was not alone in my pursuit of this pastime but at the time, I felt terribly clever :-) I am not sure if Grandma or Aunty Lizzie showed me how to make these dollies or if I just figured it out by myself, but they were a magical outlet for my passion for flowers as well as for my passion for creating.

Today, in case I had forgotten some little trick in making hollyhock dolls, I googled it and found that I remembered EVERY step! I learned a new step too for making little "faces" too, but as that was not MY way, I ignored it. Then, of course, I had to make one doll, just for fun. I WOULD have made a whole bevy if I had had enough flowers but this one was all I felt I could spare!
All the same bloom, just different views!



I find I still love making them and have the little flower doll in a bit of water. She will likely have perished by morning :-(
Well, that is most of the nostalgia. On to sentiment! In preparation for the impending visit of DD, DSIL and Baby O, we are in a frenzy of cleanup and of chucking out to make room . Baby O is not THAT big but he comes with EQ!!! The EQ needs room so DH is trying to clear out some long held stuff in his little study so there is room on the floor for a Pack 'N' Play and a desktop clear enough to use as a changing table. I have been down in the grotto throwing out magazines, books :-( and fabric etc. Some of the discards tugged at my heartstrings but a lot of it needed to go ages ago. WHY DO WE KEEP THAT STUFF??? Then, came the hard part!!!

Years ago when our daughter was a boy ( again with the tee hee) , she was bound and determined to be a palaeontologist and to that end, she became VERY keen on geology and fossils etc. We spent many magical and wonderfully educational summer holidays in Nova Scotia , beach combing for fallen fossils at Joggins ( you are NOT allowed to pick up ANYTHING off the beach there now but we were actually encouraged to do so way back then) AND, DD learned about forams- or foraminifera, to give them their full name. Forams are tiny, one celled creatures that live in the sea and when they die, their minute skeletons wash up on the beaches , invisible to the naked eye except as a little, lacy line of dried foam on the sand ,but spectacularly exquisite under a microscope. We all had a BALL collecting sand samples and then looking at the samples with a borrowed microscope from the school where DH taught. Google the word and see for yourselves.

We collected sand samples ourselves and friends who were travelling collected them for us too. I had several big boxes in my laundry room devoted to samples and as Archaeology is now DD's chosen field, I called and asked what to do with the foram stuff. She said what I thought she'd say- chuck 'em out! She said, rightly so, that if she needs more samples , she now knows where to go and how to find them.

Well, that was a HEAP of sand and we had samples from all over the world- Nova Scotia, Scotland and England, Philippines, South China Sea, Indian Ocean, East and West coasts of USA etc. WHAT TO DO?? I simply could NOT just chuck it into the garbage- so, by way of Peaceful Coexistence, I mixed the sand all up , threw in some little shells and I am going to distribute it in our garden, symbolic of a bringing together of the whole world at our house!so now, the sand and shells from all over our poor beleaguered little world, will join with good old Canadian garden dirt to help amend it into a fruitful medium for growing- hollyhocks and other beautiful things. I call that a good day's work!

And , as a parting thought, I got two emails today that made me smile! They were announcing that two of my quilts have been juried into Central Canada SAQA's Fibre Content show here in Burlington this year in September-
Bruce's Favourite

Wire Fence II
That was nice to hear on a very wet , hot Monday!

I believe I will pass this on to the needleandthreadnetwork.blogspot.com I was not going to post this week as I have clearly been doing other than quilting. However, I am now in mid experiment( stay tuned) and decided that I would pass this off as WIP ;-) Hope you have all had a great, productive week!

Equal time :-)

For our neighbours and family to the south, Happy Fourth of July, All Y'All!
Looking a bit skeptical about all this!

An outfit for every occasion

Fuzzy photo but some serious contemplation - and some even MORE serious drooling!

And his Mum hopes that drooling on and trying to EAT the American flag is NOT a treasonous offence! I like that left big toe! Very handy for keeping the flag where you really want it ! 
                                                        Happy Fourth of July. Enjoy!!

Happy Canada Day ETC!

01 July, 1867 - Canada became a country.
01 July, 1966 - DH and I were married
01 July, 2014 - Canada still going strong
                      - 48 years later- DH and I still going strong!

And early this morning, THIS young man was also going strong!! We had a nice Face Time visit before he fell asleep.

Hope you have all had a lovely day. It is HOTTT and humid here today so we are playing it calmly and dining out tonight to celebrate. Love to all, even if you are not Canadian :-) BTW, O is lying on the I Spy quilt I made for him . NB the maple leaf square near his left ear !!

Just in case you thought I had given up..
I had a wacky moment and wondered about putting a little chequerboard strip down one side of the Poppies piece. I did't like it though - so here is the final look , awaiting layering and quilting- starting tomorrow!
OOHH! This does not look well focussed but you get the idea. I removed some detail from the lower front centre petal. I like it better this way.

So now, after feeling like this was a Sunday all day, I realized it was Tuesday so I am going to pop this over onto the needleandthreadnetwork.blogspot.com. A few people have already posted so check out the site. 

The devil is in the detail

And I have been working on details! Here it is at 4:10 PM on Thursday. NOW I will stare for a while.


This is a relatively accurate depiction of de picture! The colours are pretty true all except the deep petal . In truth, it is not as purple. 
I will still wait to layer as I MAY still doctor it a tiny bit. One thing I am thinking of is adding a titch of the palest yellow to sunny up the bottom poppy. May do it. May not. We'll ALL have to wait and see.

 It is a stunning day here with a bit of an onshore breeze from the lake . Yay, Lake! I like cooling breezes. Enjoy the rest of your day and I shall too. Our house smells of peonies! I have two big bunches and still zillions in bloom in the garden. Lucky me ! :-)

Incarnations

There have been several incarnations on this Poppies Aglow II piece. Here us where I am at the moment.

It has taken all week to get to this stage and there is now a LOT of fiddly, subtle detail to add. 

I do not like the "weight" of most of the background poppies so will use the more mottled section of the fabric I made and cut new poppies from that. Hopefully, they will look a little more ephemeral! Also, I am not sure I have the best colour for the little pods and buds. It looks ok in real life but the camera is not fond of the colour. I may need to make some better bronzy greens. I have moved those background blooms around - A LOT! Don't want to clutter it up too much. 

I think I will post this to the needleandthreadnetwork.blogspot.com and see who is doing what over there. Have a look and share YOUR works in progress too!

BTW, I have spent this HOTTT day cleaning out and cleaning UP and organizing my laundry room/ dye studio! It is VERY nice and I have made a HUGE bagful of fabric for my old Aunty who quilts for her church. A good day for everyone :-)








First Poppy!

I have ALMOST finished my first big poppy! We were at Quilt Canada this morning- in the pouring rain! Congratulations to all those involved- winners and everyone. Great effort and lots of inspired work.

I started this last night but ran out of good light for choosing colours so I had to stop. Anyway, apart from a couple of small amendments, I THINK this one is done. I have some work to do on the underside of the front petal - the deep red one.
The colours are not quite true here but reasonably close. At least you get the feel of the process.

I still have a LOT to do. It will keep me busy for a bit. Then, once this top is finished, I will store it and If Monet Grew Hydrangeas carefully  and layer them one at a time and work over the summer quilting them and finishing them.

We are expecting "company" later in the summer, you know :-) In light of that fact, I have some heavy  duty cleaning and reorganizing to do here. Once Poppies is done to the quilting stage, I will not be doing too much more until after the visit except the quilting of these two in my "spare time".
Are we cute, or what??? This was taken two days ago :-)
So, now that I have had a little sit down, back to work!